i am bored

[dubdobdee]

i. yet again no work has turned up today -- i will be frantic busy next week >:(
ii. i have bin doin this job for nine and a half years, and that is too long
iii. i sense my hinkiness and diffidence about ordinary lovely daily friendships is getting some of my friends down (it is not meant as any kind of a diss but how can it not come across as that?)
iv. i am stuck in the middle of all kinds of projects which are all grinding exceeding slow
v. i am constantly getting over-excited about glimmers of movement which turn out to be slight at most
vi. yes i am on the move but way not fast enough (this feels so but i have no idea what it means)
vii. i feel like i am spinning ever-more plates high in the air in the secret hope that a huge grand smash is coming -- i have done this before, in fact i do it about every ten years more or less

Comments

[dubdobdee.livejournal.com]

haha CLUE i have just been writin up my notes to the piece i am writing about C0NTR0L, the j0y d!v movie

[freakytigger.livejournal.com]

How central do you think ii is to the problem? I know I get dreadfully itchy, resentful, irritable, melancholic etc after 3 years so god knows how 9 must feel!

Was the outcome of vii last time a good or bad thing on the whole?

[atommickbrane.livejournal.com]

Hello Dr Sparky, what does HINKINESS mean?

contributory factor

[dubdobdee.livejournal.com]

i don't know which is the chicken and which is the egg here really, but since i lost weight i have a fvckload of spare physical energy to deal with, and not yet very many good habits dealing with it

what i shd in fact do when i get a spare empty hour at work is walk down to ironmonger row baths and swim 20 lengths

i said egg

[dubdobdee.livejournal.com]

maybe i should have a baby!

[anthonyeaston.livejournal.com]

a bit like lady lazarus, no--there is a lesson in that text, i think, though maybe not one featuring heads and/or ovens.

much luv

[anthonyeaston.livejournal.com]

i didnt mean to be unkind, i do care for you...